Posted at 11:57 PM 0 comments (+) okay i have enough of this shit . i'm not use of having problem happening every single day . i'm sick and tired . whatever happen to me stay with me . i don't wish to share . i'm not in the mood . i feel like i'm totally a different person . everything just change . i use to be an easygoing , happy person . i'm just not now . i really wish to be one even when i'm attached . to be happy every single day without any problem . i want to fly away from singapore to run away from my problems . i know its not the right decision but its the best for me . i can't settle every problem on my own . i just don't give a fcuk anymore . i wish to stop thinking about anything thats happening and do my own stuff . i want to find a job to distract my mind . i thought having a boyfriend would be fun and share every single problem i have . but i was wrong . he keep on thinking about my past and think negative about me . i should be use to it . eventhough i've change . having a handphone isn't the best thing i should have . i want to mia for now . i will be back when i'm okay . i need time for myself . i ever thought of running away so that anyone can't find me . but i want to fulfill my dreams . get a cert to succeed in life . i should stop thinking about this shit and concentrate what i want in life . to you , thank you for ignoring me . it help me alot and show me that you don't need me . yes i know you need to meet your friend to forget about us . well go ahead . i won't be stopping you . don't worry . i love you . you do whats best for you and make you happy . i'll be okay . i still don't understand why you should find fault about me . i guess i'm not the girl you want . you make me feel guilty . but i know it isn't my fault . okay now i feel like crying . fcuk ! i hate life ! i know life theres up and down but i don't wish it to happen now . i guess i had enough . don't change your mind if you reading this . i just express what i really feel this past days . i ever thought of torturing myself from not eating and stuff and be admitted to hospital . i know thats stupid . but nothing good happening to my life . i'm not being emo . i know , i never been this way for a long time . stupid feeling . stupid diana . why are you so weak ? you are strong . stay that way . man , go away lar problem . fcuk my life . i may smile and laugh but my mind keep on thinking . stupid !

goodbye lovelies . takecare .