"I am writing the story that will never end in my heart."
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"I am writing the story that will never end in my heart."
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i'm officially a nurse . how happy am i ? i remembered when i get my result of what course i'll be getting and its nursing . i was down . but now i think its quite interested to know more . i'm attach to operating theatre . wasn't expected for that . new things are good yknow . more allowance is what i wanted . i'm kidding . its so different from what i've learnt in school . so i have a career at a young age . hehe
so what happen to me now ? its actually great . i enjoyed my life now . with no commitment and stress except for the test everyday . i think i'm out of ideas now . just want to say everything been great . loving it
i may looked as if i'm happy and enjoying life but the truth is after this 4 months i can't get hasif out of my mind . why is that so ? he's always been there in any way . when i'm sad , when i'm happy in whatever situation i'm in he'll be there . i'm missing it because i don't feel how hasif use to treat me from anyone . late night calls , those times when he accompany me when i'm sick . when he try his best to make me happy . avoid from me getting stress . i miss those days
i should move on , i should . why i'm not . stop losing my tears on my past . i shouldn't be stressing up about this . yes i can't fall in love that easily . as for now , no one in mind . i hate giving people hope which actually i don't . okay stop jiwang . haha . goodbye  life have been a bitch . yeah i hope 2012 was a better year . i don't know what should i do now . so fuck it . i made my own choice at my own timing . i don't need anyone to tell me what and when to do it . once i don't give a fuck , i won't anymore . if guys was important to me i will be desperately finding . no , i'm not ready . truth is this two months was a joyful months . i've learn alot and make new friends . certainly i lost my old one . so nothings new . everything isn't going how i picture it to be . but it was nice , nothings perfect . my life was more to my own . i'm become more independent . my parents was there to . but i realised i wasn't as close to them like how i used to . well hasif's birthday had past a few days back . i wasn't there to wish him his 19th birthday perhap even on his 20th birthday . just maybe i'm not ready to face him . but why i have to think of him ? because his away suddenly . i hate how i'm feeling this past days . if i'm suppose settle down now , i need to choose . i hate it , i hate it . okay fuck it . i'm gonna eat . i'll update very soon . goodbye lovelies ♥ muah
 well its been awhile . my life just fuck up . like really . theres time i'm happy and not . i don't know why i'm living this kind of fuck up life . with the person now i hate the most is harrassing and treatening me , boy , please move on . just accept the fact that we both can't be together as one . i've been waiting to be single ever since and the reason isn't because i want to find another guy . i just want FREEDOM ! stop disturbing my life . i don't why you have to even meet or talk to my parents about me . you're just an asshole . i tried to talked things out with you NICELY but end up , you respond nastily . well thats what you wanted . i'm waiting for it to be over . i'm to lazy to actually reply to any fucking words from you . it doesn't mean anything to me . from now on you're no one to me . so don't ever call me . fucker ! spread love was awesome with avians . thank you guys for making it happening . :)
Life is totally darkness without her.
Nurdiana Erniwaty Binte Ismail , I miss you more then alot . well things change now . I still cant believe that this would happen . Whatever it is , you will always be in my heart . Life is totally different and lonely . Thanks alot dear for giving me this last chance . All those flashbag just cant stop , how she make my dayy with a smile and everything. She just like a mum , wife , gf , bestie where i can joke and have fun with. Well love im sorry. Those tears just cant stop falling. Love you always ! Muacks! :'( I miss Us...
Hello Manje... I miss you . :')  my muhamma hasif bin hassan . take care of yourself out there . idk where you are , but take a good care of yourself . please don't drag too long . you need to concentrate for your tp k . i'll support you as far as i could . be home soon and get your mind straight . i'm sorry if anything i do just bring you down . bt thats the way i am . i love you . |
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