Posted at 11:55 AM 0 comments (+) Before i start updating my delayed post , i will like to make this post as a reminder to myself .

On aug 6 . I came to know that i'm pregnant again . Yes its definitely a surprise and i'm having mixed feelings . Don't get me wrong , i'm happy that we're gonna have another kid . Just not how i imagine , i want to see uwais start walking or talking . I still want to pamper and spent more time with him alone .When we have another kid , uwais will know he's gonna be a big brother .

It took me a month and a half for me to check the pregnancy test because i actually lose weight during the month of july . Thats the reason why i delayed .

I went for my trip before seeing the gynae because there wasn't any earlier slot . On the second last day in osaka , i start feeling like i'm having menses . I start having cramps . It continue to bleed until we touchdown . And i decided to go to a&e . I didn't get any sleep on my way to kansai airport and on the plane back to singapore  i can't stop thinking of how the process will be like . Once i step foot in a&e , blood starts gushing out . I know my pad will not hold it . Went to change my pad and clots keep flowing out . It keeps bleeding until i was on the a&e bed for observation . I was given choices to let it flow or medication . I choose doing nothing and let it flow . I have an appointment on 3rd sept to see if its clear .

Yes i miscarriage .

Eventhough its a surprise pregnancy but i was happy . I redha . Its not meant for us . Allah knows best .