life have been a bitch . yeah i hope 2012 was a better year . i don't know what should i do now . so fuck it . i made my own choice at my own timing . i don't need anyone to tell me what and when to do it . once i don't give a fuck , i won't anymore . if guys was important to me i will be desperately finding . no , i'm not ready . truth is this two months was a joyful months . i've learn alot and make new friends . certainly i lost my old one . so nothings new . everything isn't going how i picture it to be . but it was nice , nothings perfect . my life was more to my own . i'm become more independent . my parents was there to . but i realised i wasn't as close to them like how i used to .

well hasif's birthday had past a few days back . i wasn't there to wish him his 19th birthday perhap even on his 20th birthday . just maybe i'm not ready to face him . but why i have to think of him ? because his away suddenly .

i hate how i'm feeling this past days . if i'm suppose settle down now , i need to choose . i hate it , i hate it . okay fuck it . i'm gonna eat . i'll update very soon .

goodbye lovelies ♥ muah