Posted at 2:49 AM 0 comments (+)
hi . i'm posting this because i can't put myself to sleep . bleargh . and i'm working at 10am later on . i guess a lot of things been running through my mind .

i don't know whether i should mention but when people asked me ' when are you getting engaged , when are you getting married ' . truthfully , i have no idea when will it be . when the time comes it will . i  don't want him to stress up infact i'm don't want to think of it . no point rushing things when he himself isn't ready to be committed . he also have a lot of things running through his mind too . finding a stable job , continuing school . in anyway i'm still gonna support .

i'm trying to save up for my future . its a must to do . even if he's not there i still can manage on my own . not asking for the worst to happen but you'll never know what gonna happen in the future . right ? i let HIM to show me whats right for me .

things have been really interesting for me lately . this weekend is another interview . not gonna say much because i don't see myself getting it . but its not a harm trying . so thats what i'm doing . and june another interview which i've been wanting so much . bismillah aje la

fasting month is just around the corner . its time for me to get myself closer to HIM .

how i wish i can sing . how i wish i have my own place . how i wish i have a job that i really enjoy . how i wish i'm brave enough to travel the world alone . how i wish things go as i hope for . how i wish to be happy .

putting a fake smile , lessen alot of trouble answering to people . the reason i like to be alone . or i just need someone to be there just talk about anything so i won't think too much .

well , i think thats all for now . 2 am thoughts . haha

i'll end here
i'll try to tuck myself in pretty soon

goodnight lovelies
XOXO