Posted at 4:26 AM 0 comments (+) its time of the day i need to express my feeling somewhere . eventhough my head is aching right now from all the thoughts running through my mind . and my eyes are sore .

lets start , ever have the feeling you never good enough for someone but you've try your best to change . well the worst feeling when someone's feeling fade . and you know for sure you can't change anything . because what ever you do is disgusted by the other . i'll try to make this better . if letting go is the only option , i have no say .  maybe its for the better . but the thoughts of starting a new relationship with someone else , that trouble . hmm i don't want to go through that route again .

turning back to HIM is the only choice i have . asking for answer why i have to go through this heartache again .  feeling shitty , depressed and hopeless .

3 more days of me turning 22 . for the first time ever i'm not excited for my birthday after what happened . idk if its gonna be the happiest day or my worst day .

truthfully , all that happen keep me thinking that i gonna leave this world anytime soon . i keep thinking i'll meet with an accident . as much as i wouldn't want that to happen but we'll never know right .

i'm thankful with what i've become and the friends i meet .

and right now my main purpose is to get closer to HIM and my family . i've neglect them for too long .

i need my rest before sahur . my head starting to ache so bad right now
goodnight
XOXO