questions after questions running through my head . is this what i want , do i want to live with him for the rest of my life , can he make me happy , will he not make me tear , am i doing the right choice ?

i know relationship have ups and downs . but when someone don't prioritise me , keep bringing me down  

sometimes i wonder , am i even someone fiancee ?

i just feel like going somewhere quiet , be alone and think it through . my last post was november when i was so happy and this happened again . am i suppose to feel this way every time . why can't i be happy ? if you can't accept me at my worse why do you think you deserve my best ? i'm done being nice and be treated unfairly . i will ignore all negative even if it means forget about you . 

goodnight